I'm Finding it Harder to be a Gentleman
They spend a lot of time making out. In Sid’s room, in cars, in Andy’s
room. Sid hasn’t kissed this much since his freshman year in high
school. Andy loves to sigh against his lips, make little hitched noises
of want, and tease Sid with his tongue and his entire body. It’s been
two weeks and Sid still hasn’t had a bare hand on Andy’s dick. They rub
together, sometimes frantic, sometimes slow, always with a sense of
desperation.
Sid has made Andy come in his jeans, gasping and
flushed, clinging to Sid’s biceps. Andy has kissed his way down Sid’s
neck and run his hands down Sid’s back, squeezing over his ass in a way
that’s almost shy.
To be honest, Sid hasn’t made a move. His
hands have drifted lower, rubbing over Andy’s erection through heavy
denim but his fingers never make it to the zipper. For someone he’s had
such vivid fantasies about, he’s certainly pussying out when it comes to
making them a reality.
Sid’s used to a quick fuck; tugging down
jeans, alternating hands and mouths on hard cocks when half sober or
fully stoned. He’s used to meaningless sex with guys that are barely
friends and who never want to mention it in the light of day. With
Andy, it all feels so – innocent, even when it’s heated, and part of Sid
thinks the spell may break as soon as the clothes come off.
When
it’s all said and done, Andy makes the first move. They’re in Andy’s
room and it’s earlier than they’ve ever hung out before since Sid had a
day off. Andy rolls on top of him, kissing his way down Sid’s neck,
biting his Adam’s apple softly with his teeth. Sid groans, dropping his
hands to Andy’s ass and grinding their dicks together.
“Want to
feel you,” Andy moans, words muffled by his face pressed into the
juncture of Sid’s neck. Sid’s cock twitches hard and he knows Andy can
feel it.
Sid’s stomach flutters. “Yeah? What do you want?” he growls, kneading Andy’s jean-clad ass.
“Wanna suck you,” Andy whispers, quiet and shy, and god, it’s like every fantasy come true.
“Jesus fuck, Andy,” Sid moans, biting at Andy’s earlobe, vision growing hazy with want.
Andy gasps and jerks in his arms. “You never say my name.”
Sid’s
sure he has but he can’t remember at the moment. He rolls them over so
Andy’s pressed against the wall. “Andy,” he repeats, voice thick with
need.
Andy’s pupils are dilated, his eyes darker than usual. “Yes,”
Andy groans, and then they’re kissing, frantic and sharp while their
hands pull at shirts and tug at jeans.
Sid wants it all and he
wants it now. It still feels so fucking innocent; the magic not cast
way once Andy is spread out, naked and perfect, next to him. Because
Andy has freckles on his shoulders, and his face is flushed down to his
neck and he bites his lip while he looks at Sid, hair flopping in front
of his eyes.
Sid just growls some more, unable to help himself,
and slides his body on top of Andy’s, pushing Andy’s thighs apart and
nudging his leg between them. Andy’s hands scale over his back,
stopping on his ass and palming lightly. Sid shivers and kisses him
harder, their tongues slick and hot, matching the heat of their
erections. Sid groans and ruts his body against Andy’s, gasping with
each slide of his cock.
“Oh my god,” Andy pants against his lips. “Oh, fuck, Sid.”
“You like this?” Sid murmurs between open-mouthed kisses.
“Fuck yes.”
Sid bits Andy’s lower lip, pulling it between his teeth, “Want my cock?” he mumbles around the soft flesh.
Andy whimpers in response. Sid palms his torso, fingers grabbing what he can of Andy’s ass from this position.
“Want to 69?” Sid asks, licking a long slow line from the base of Andy’s neck to his jaw.
“Shit, yes,” Andy hisses.
Sid
flops down so he’s flat on his back. “Climb over me, gimme your dick.”
He can barely keep his words steady, and his hands shake with the
knowledge that he’ll soon have Andy in his mouth, hands on his ass while
Andy sucks him down.
Andy fumbles a little while getting into
position and Sid can tell he’s nervous. He strokes his lower back in
small circles. “Gonna make you feel good,” Sid rumbles, and it sounds
sort of like a promise. Andy just nods in response and then his lips on
Sid’s cock, his dick bobbing right next to Sid’s face.
Sid
groans at the wet heat of Andy’s mouth and sucks him in halfway. Andy’s
muffled cry radiates from where he’s lapping at the head of Sid’s
erection and Sid can’t help the smile that stretches across his lips.
Sid
palms Andy’s bare ass, pulling him in closer until Andy gets the hint.
Andy fucks Sid’s mouth while Sid keeps his hips still, letting Andy get
used to the feel of it all. Normally, he’d be pressing up, fucking the
mouth that’s doing this to him so he can come, the quicker the better.
Now the position is reversed and he can’t say he minds. He pushes Andy
forward, letting him fall out of his mouth so he can lap at the pre-cum
of his dick. Andy licks down Sid’s cock before swallowing him halfway;
it’s fucking perfect. Sid sucks him harder in response, one hand
holding the base of Andy’s cock while the other skims over his ass
cheeks fervently.
“Sid, Sid I’m.” Andy gasps a few seconds
later, mouth pressed again the head of Sid’s cock, his breath hot like
fire and tantalizing.
Sid lifts his hips a little, sucking Andy
harder, telling him wordlessly not to stop. He listens, exploding in
Sid’s mouth while moaning around Sid’s cock. Sid swallows it all and
feels his balls tighten.
He lets Andy fall from his lips.
“Pull off,” he gasps, and Andy does. “Your hand, gimme..” Sid trails
off, the start of his orgasm rushing through him. Andy pumps the base
of Sid’s cock just in time. Sid shifts a little, watching as some of his
come hits Andy in the face.
“Oh shit, Andy,” he says,
in near disbelief. He comes and comes and Andy strokes him through it.
When Sid is spent, Andy turns around, his chin and hands a mess. Sid
tugs him down and laps at his face. Andy moans and shakes in his arms
like Jell-O.
“That was, fuck that was..” Andy doesn’t finish
and Sid smirks proudly. He can’t begin to imagine Andy’s reaction after
actually fucking. His cock twitches painfully at the prospect.
Sid
cleans Andy up with his tongue, who moans softly throughout his
ministrations. They lay in a lose embrace, Andy’s head on his chest.
Sid starts to feel restless, hands twitching at how --- romantic this
all seems now. He’s better with fast and dirty.
“Dude, can I smoke in here?” Sid asks, already starting to twist out of Andy’s embrace and reach for his jeans.
Andy grumbles and gazes up at him sleepily. “Can you not?”
Sid
sighs and flops back down, feeling trapped. They haven’t really –
snuggled before, if that’s what this is called. All their couplings
thus far have been over the clothes, so there’s that whole sticky
clean-up process to deal with. Sid feels like a caged animal while Andy
makes a snuffling noise against his chest and burrows in closer.
“This is nice,” Andy says, contentedly, contrarily, as if he’s well aware of the inner mechanisms of Sid’s brain.
Sid stares at the ceiling. “It’s fucking hot in here, aren’t you hot?”
“Nope,” Andy says, kissing his chest softly. Sid can feel his eyelashes as they flutter closed.
He
sighs again, raising his fingers to Andy’s slightly damp hair, pushing
the strands off his forehead. Andy hums and raises his head. Damn those eyes, Sid thinks, as he falls into them.
Andy’s doing the lip biting thing again. “Good, then?” Andy asks. Sid can tell he doesn’t mean for it to sound hopeful.
“No,
it was the worst orgasm of my life. I’d like my money back, you hussy,”
he deadpans. Andy giggles and tackles him, ticking him under his arms
where Sid is absolutely, positively not ticklish, thank you very much.
Sid
swats at him until they’re wrestling, Andy flat on his back, tucked
against the corner and Sid looming above him. Their eyes meet and it’s
as though the world stills, Andy’s laughter trailing off and Sid’s heart
pounding from something other than the exertion.
Sid leans down to kiss him, but it feels different from all their other kisses; significant in some way, like the first time.
They kiss for long minutes before Andy pulls him down, tucking Sid’s
head against his shoulder. Sid stays; the urge to flee now surprisingly
absent.
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It takes Andy a month to say something. Sid’s surprised he lasted this long.
They’re
on Sid’s couch stretched out next to one another, their legs resting on
the coffee table while playing Call of Duty when Andy asks, “So,
where’s your family? I never see anyone here.”
Sid nearly drops
his controller. He should lie, make something up, or just make out with
Andy until he forgets the question. But he can’t hide from it forever.
To be honest, he doesn’t want to. Let Andy see just how fucked up his
life is, let him run.
“They split. My mom got a job at a different hospital out of state – they didn’t want to move me just so I could not attend another high school, not graduate, not go to college. Said they had me for 17 years and that was more than enough.”
Sid
keeps his eyes on the game while he speaks but he knew he was going to
have to face Andy eventually. He sighs, presses pause, and turns toward
the inevitable. Sure enough, Andy looks lost and confused.
“Seriously?” he asks, voice so fucking soft it makes Sid grind his teeth.
“Nah, I’m a pathological liar. They’re on vacation and will be back any day,” Sid says, sardonically.
Instead of the normal giggle, Andy ignores him. “But.. this house..”
Sid
waves him off. “They bought it as a foreclosure ages ago. Fixed it up
real good. Been paid off for years. The electric and shit was touch
and go for a while but now with this job I’m doing okay.”
Andy blinks, wide-eyed. Before Sid realizes it, he has an armful of warm, lanky Andy.
His body stiffens like deer in headlights. “What.. what are you doing?”
Andy tightens his arms around Sid’s shoulders and presses his face firmly into Sid’s neck. “Hugging you.”
Sid
feels as though his spine will snap like elastic. It feels like pity,
it feels like comfort; it feels like Andy is giving Sid permission to
cry, to care.
He shoves him away. “Well, knock it the fuck off.”
Andy’s
eyes flare. “What, you can kiss me, suck my dick, but a hug is too gay
for you?” Andy makes air quotes around the word gay. He’s wrong. Sid
isn’t his gay-when-convenient friends; he knows what he likes, what he
wants. Andy hugging him makes him feel a good number of things but
“gay” certainly wasn’t one of them.
“Let’s just play the fucking game,” Sid said, un-pausing it without waiting for a response.
Andy looks like a kicked puppy when Sid walks him to the door later. Sid sighs. “Jesus, can you let this go?”
Andy leans against the wall. “I don’t know how to talk to you.”
He hates the sound of Andy’s voice in that moment; helpless and frustrated all at once.
“You got it wrong there. As Willy Wonka said: strike that, reverse it.”
Andy grins but it’s half-hearted.
Sid
feels something clench in his chest. “Hey,” he steps closer, cupping
Andy’s jaw in his hand. Andy’s eyes are impossibly blue and they make
Sid’s breath catch every damn time. He kisses Andy hard, forcing his
lips open and caging him against the wall. Andy moans, meeting the
biting collide of lips with vigor, his own hands pulling at the hem of
Sid’s t-shirt.
Sid breaks away, resting his forehead to Andy’s.
“Thank you,” he chokes out. When he looks up Andy is gazing at him as
if he was just told he won the lottery.
Andy smiles and
touches Sid’s cheek. “Can I..?” And before Sid can ask ‘what,’ Andy’s
arms lock around his body, unlocking Sid’s heart in the process. Sid
sighs and sinks into the embrace, his own arms tightening around the
small of Andy’s back. He can feel Andy’s smile curve against his
shoulder and pulls him even closer.
They stay like that for
long minutes before Andy begins peppering kisses up Sid’s neck and over
his face while saying, “I gotta, gotta go.” Sid responds, “In a minute,
you’ll go in a minute,” and kisses him some more.
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That
incident aside, Sid hasn’t fucked it up yet. Clearly, he deserves a
medal. Andy laughs at his recurrent sarcasm and is seemingly charmed by
Sid’s wide variety of grunts in response Andy’s cheerful ‘good
mornings.’ Andy keeps bringing him Iced Coffee, Iced Espresso, and
sometimes Iced Tea so Sid must be doing something right besides sucking
his cock well. No matter how much Sid is getting daily he still jerks
off, unable to quell the thought of fucking Andy, especially now that
he’s squeezed that naked ass in his hands; he fucking dreams about it.
In
predictable fashion, Andy asks him to the night before he’s supposed to
leave. Sid’s sure that’s the only reason he’s doing it.
They’re
rutting together on Sid’s bed, naked and tangled, Sid’s fingers gliding
over the cleft of Andy’s ass. “I want you to fuck me,” Andy gasps when
Sid flips their positions so he’s is mouthing his dick, his fingers
teasing more firmly against Andy’s hole like they have for a few weeks
now, silently asking, and even pushing inside a few times while Andy
thrashed above him.
“You just want to give me something to
remember you by. You’re like a chick whose dude is going off to war,”
Sid laughs, licking a slow line up the underside of Andy’s cock.
Andy groans in response, fisting his hands in Sid’s hair. “Can’t stop thinking about it,” he gasps.
Sid
pauses, then bites Andy’s thigh, delighting in the yelp. Andy’s words
are cosmically unfair. In a perfect world, Sid would be fucking him
nightly. Now, Andy has to go and tell him he’s been thinking of that
very notion and Sid has to deal with the knowledge that come tomorrow, Andy won’t be walking up his driveway and into his bed.
Sid’s not sure what is worse: never fucking Andy or fucking him and not know when, or if, it will happen again.
“And I’ve watched porn on tumblr and shit, I’m not some innocent,” Andy says with twinge of conviction Sid finds adorable.
“What the hell is a tumbler?”
The
corner of Andy’s mouth quirks up. “Nevermind. Anyway, I know you want
to,” Andy says, and Sid will never get used to his perfect mix of
confidence and innocence, revealing itself in the oddest moments. “Do
it,” he moans as Sid fingers tease further.
Sid buries his
forehead against the mattress and inhales deeply, trying desperately not
to come, Andy completely unaware what his words are doing to him.
“Just
stay there,” Sid says, climbing up Andy’s lanky frame to kiss him
before bounding onto the floor. He glances back at the bed, takes in
Andy’s spread legs and flushed face. He squeezes the base of his dick
as he walks to the bathroom. He finds some tube of baby oil. Next stop
is his dresser. He pulls the condom out of his wallet he’s never used,
hoping Andy isn’t watching. The thing is, Sid’s never actually gone
this far. He’s never been particularly interested in girls and this has
always been, as Andy would say, “too gay” for the guys he’s slept with.
Sid has traveled to the town’s nearest gay bar, but each and every
time the youngest guy there was still in his forties and Sid wasn’t in
looking to be someone’s jailbait fantasy.
When Sid turns back to the bed, Andy is lazily stroking his dick.
“Jesus,”
Sid mutters under his breath and nearly tackles him on the bed. Andy
laughs into the kiss and Sid finds himself doing the same. For a moment
it’s just pure, innocent fun until Andy hitches a leg around his thigh
and Sid remembers the materials in his sweaty palm.
Sid presses
him harder into the mattress, dropping the items on the bed and pinning
Andy down by his forearms. He brushes Andy’s mouth with his own, just
barely; teasing. Andy arches up for more, trying to catch his lips
while Sid holds him at bay each time he gets close. He can feel Andy’s
erection straining against his belly.
“You want this?” Sid taunts, dirtily.
“You know I do, dammit,” Andy pants, still trying to catch Sid’s mouth, unable to move from where he’s being held.
Sid takes pity on him then, surging down to press their bodies tight together while biting at Andy’s lips.
His
hands palm Andy’s flank and upper thighs before shifting his weight.
“Open your legs,” he whispers. Andy obeys and Sid slides to his knees
between them, sitting back on his haunches.
If Andy notices
Sid’s shaking hands upon opening the baby oil, he gratefully doesn’t say
anything. And if Andy believes that Sid knows what the fuck he’s
doing, well, that’s fine with Sid. Better, even, because if Andy knew
otherwise we’d probably suggest they look up instructions on the
internet.
Sid’s watched enough porn in his life, more than Andy
he’s sure, where he’s not completely clueless. He slides a finger in
without preamble; he’s done this much with spit but it’s slicker, easier
this way. Andy arches to the touch, like always, and Sid bites his lip
to keep from moaning.
He watches Andy’s face the entire time,
reading his expression, stopping when it looks like three fingers is too
much, even though his balls are tightening at the mere thought of
sliding into the hot, slick heat of Andy’s ass, and all he wants is to
push in right fucking now.
Andy’s slack jawed and panting, his
hips rising while Sid slowly gets him used to three fingers. He curves
them slightly, causing Andy to cry out sharply, his entire body tensing.
“What?!” Sid yelps, withdrawing his fingers.
“No, no it’s.. god, it’s good,” Andy groans, reaching for Sid’s arms to drag him back.
Sid exhales, feeling like he was punched in the gut. “You scared the fucking shit outta me.”
Andy looks half sheepish, half blissed out of his mind. “Sorry. Just do that again.”
Sid
does, looming over Andy and kissing him through it. Andy’s tongue
curls around his, so fucking sweet, soft muffled cries of pleasure
against Sid’s lips.
A few moments later Sid is pressing his
fingers firm to Andy’s jaw and gasping into his mouth, “I need to fuck
you now or I’m gonna come against your thigh.”
“You’re such a charmer,” Andy laughs, weakly, his leg arching higher.
“Fuck, I’m pulling out,” Sid warns and Andy moans longingly when his fingers retreat.
Sid
runs both hands through his hair, takes a gulping breath and fumbles
with the condom wrapper. He shoves the damn thing on, disliking the
feel of it already but hoping he at least did it correctly.
“Like this?” Andy asks when Sid is crawling over him, his legs still spread.
Sid really wants Andy on top of him, but he just nods, suddenly completely unsure of everything.
“Yeah,
this is good,” Sid says. Andy’s hands lock around his shoulders and
Sid presses forward, gripping the base of his cock with unsteady
fingers. He keeps kissing Andy; his face, down his neck, biting and
licking. Andy lets out a choked sob and Sid tenses up, stroking Andy’s
side.
“Can I go deeper?” he asks against Andy’s throat.
“Yeah, yeah, just slow,” Andy says, his voice breathless.
Sid
does, pausing here and there, letting Andy breathe and push against
him, and feeling his body yield. Andy’s so tight and hot, even through
the latex, and Sid feels he could curl up and die here.
He
sucks in a deep breath when he’s fully inside, his fingers firm on
Andy’s hips while Andy’s legs tighten around the small of his back.
“Gonna move,” Sid says, unsure he’d be able to stop if Andy says anything other than ‘yes’.
Luckily, he doesn’t need to find out. “Yeah,” Andy pants, breath hot against Sid’s cheek.
Sid
feels like all his nerve endings are on fire. He thrusts into Andy’s
body, listening to the small sounds makes, the way he clenches around
him.
“You feel good,” he murmurs, trying to sound begrudging when it’s so much less than what he wants to say.
Naturally, Andy makes up for his shortcomings. “You feel fucking amazing,” Andy grunts, his hips thrusting ever so slightly.
“Doesn’t hurt?” Sid asks, nonchalant, like he’s not hanging on Andy’s response.
“A little, but it’s still good.” Andy’s words are broken, stilted.
Sid
hands shift to under Andy’s knees, hitching him higher as sits back a
little and thrusts forward, trying to make it deeper, better. Andy
cries out, but this time Sid knows the sound and watches as Andy’s eyes
roll back in his head. Andy’s hand flies furiously over his cock, each
of them finding a rhythm now.
Andy licks his lips.. “Sid, I’m.. fuck, I’m gonna come.”
“Go
on. Do it,” Sid says through gritted teeth, fucking into his body a
little harder. Andy lets out a sob of pleasure, broken syllables that
sound like oh, god, oh fuck yes falling from his lips as his cock spurts all over his chest.
Sid
doesn’t take his eyes off Andy’s face, his trembling lips, the way his
jaw twitches and his mouth falls open, gasping for air. His snaps his
hips forward until he’s coming inside Andy’s body, falling down onto his
chest while groaning, “Andy, jesus fuck.”
“Shit,” Sid
breathes, when he can finally speak again. Andy’s legs have slipped
down to the point that Sid is started to slide out. He pulls out
slowly, Andy moaning at the movement.
Andy’s arms wrap around
Sid as soon as he returns to the bed after tossing the condom in the
trash. Sid smears his fingers through the come on Andy’s belly. Andy
laughs at him, kissing the Sid’s temple. Sid grins up at him, openly,
and soon they’re lost in a fit of giddy giggling that Sid only
previously engaged in while stoned.
Andy kisses him anywhere he can reach and Sid tries not to think about the reasons why.
“Can
you stay the night?” Sid asks, between kisses, hating how hopeful his
voice sounds to his own ears. They’ve never done that before.
Andy’s
eyes shine with regret as he shakes his head. “Don’t really want to
piss off my mom the day that I have to leave.. plus, she’s on the war
path,” Andy sighs, pulling Sid back against his chest, talking into his
hair. “She keeps talking about how I need to finish packing up my room,
need to decide once and for all which of my toys are going with me,
which are going in the attic.”
Sid shakes his head, grabbing a
cigarette and lighter from the night stand. “You and your fucking toys,
man.” He’s not even about to deny the fondness in his voice.
Andy steals a drag from his cigarette; he hasn’t seen him smoke since that night at the playground.
“Shut
up, I love my toys,” Andy says, laughing. “I dunno, it’s just. It’s
like she’s asking me to quantify my childhood, you know? ‘What’s most
important? Which are your fondest memories?’ It’s.. weird,” Andy sighs,
sounding so lost. Sid turns his head, pressing his nose against Andy’s
neck. He can’t respond to that. He has a handful of happy memories from
his childhood and they’re so distant now it’s as though they happened
to someone else.
“You should’ve just blown up or mutilated your toys like I did. Then you wouldn’t have this problem.”
“Such a good influence,” Andy deadpans. Sid grins around his cigarette.
They
lapse into silence for a bit, Sid running the tips of his fingers up
and down Andy’s arm while Andy kisses his ear, his neck, anything he
reach.
“So, uh,” Andy clears his throat, sounding serious, and
Sid braces himself. “I’ll probably be coming home every weekend. Bring
my mom my dirty clothes just like every generic college student. Plus, I
heard the laundry rooms in the dorms are a nightmare.”
Sid
tries to wrap his mind around the words, what Andy’s really saying.
“Well, I wouldn’t know,” he snorts, purposely ignoring the first half of
his sentence.
Andy’s lips stop moving against his hair. “And
uh, it’s not that far away. Like an hour drive or so. You could always…
come up on weekends. I can have visitors at the dorms. Plus, I managed
to nab a single,” Andy drawls out the last part, his implications loud
and clear. Sid feels his skin heat up, tries to focus.
“I can’t put those kinds of miles on my truck. It barely runs as it is,” he says, dismissively. It’s the truth.
“Okay, what exactly are you doing here?” Andy asks, voice sharp as he pulls away and peers down at Sid.
“What?”
Sid asks, letting his eyes go vacant and cold. He didn’t realize until
this moment that this is how tonight should have gone all along.
“Why are you completely avoiding the situation?’
“And what ‘situation’ would that be, Davis?’ he asks, bored, picking at his fingernails, before glancing up blankly.
Andy
studies him for a minute. “Jesus Christ,” he finally says,
incredulously. “I can’t believe I – why did I ever let you..?” He
scoffs, swinging his legs off the bed and reaching for his boxers.
“What?!” Sid yells, daring him to say the words.
Andy
pulls his boxers up and whirls on Sid. “Why did I ever let you fuck me
if you were just gonna do it in more ways than one!”
Sid rolls his eyes. “You sound like a chick, jesus.”
All the fire goes out in Andy’s eyes. Good. Break him. Do it now before it goes any further,
Sid’s inner monologue chants. Because really, where was this going?
Sid doesn’t need to be the summer fling that held on through fall. He
doesn’t need every weekend home for laundry to turn into every other
weekend to turn into once a month. It was fun but it’s time to deal
with reality again.
Andy’s searching through the clothes on the
floor for his pants and Sid’s pretending the sight of him walking out
the door won’t feel like a blow to the head. Andy stops in his tracks,
walking around to Sid’s side of the bed, looming over him.
“I
don’t know what’s going on in that head of yours but this wasn’t it for
me tonight. I wasn’t about to compartmentalize you along with the rest
of my childhood.”
The way Andy can just say whatever he’s
thinking whenever he’s thinking it causes something to deflate inside
Sid. He scrubs his hands over his eyes, suddenly feeling so very old and
sick of his own mind games.
“Why the fuck not, Andy? You’re going to college, you’re getting the fuck away. Why do you wanna come back here? Why would you even want to remember anything about this fucking town?”
Andy
leans down and kisses him so softly that Sid has to chase his lips to
feel them. “Because I’m not your family. I’m not gonna leave you
behind,” Andy whispers.
Sid feels his eyes start to burn and
squeezes them shut. He’s not gonna fucking cry, he’s not. Andy pulls
him off the bed and into his arms, just holding him and not letting go
while Sid absolutely doesn’t wipe his tears against Andy’s shoulder.
Sid
still isn’t sure where this kid came from, how he drifted into Sid’s
life, providing things he didn’t even know he wanted, much less
deserved, for two glorious months. And honestly, if it ended tonight at
least he could say he had something better than he ever expected or
imagined.
“I don’t know if I’ll see you tomorrow,” Andy says,
after he’s dressed and Sid’s no longer about to break apart. “It’s
gonna be crazy, but I’ll try.”
“Alright. I should get some rest.
Gotta pick up all the trash from your room tomorrow,” Sid grins. He
squeezes Andy’s ass gently, delighting in the squeak he receives in
response.
“I’ll call you. Oh, uh. Here,” Andy says, digging into the pocket of his jeans. It’s a phone card.
“I know you don’t have, like, unlimited minutes, so. This should get us through a few weeks.”
Sid feels grateful and frustrated at once. “You don’t have to.. I mean, I can buy shit.”
Andy
nods, looking contrite. “Next time. I knew you wouldn’t buy one
yourself… kind of had a feeling you were expecting me to break up with
you.”
Sid’s heart stops and starts at the words because
honestly, he never gave them a label in his head. But yeah, they’re
going out, and thankfully no breaking up was occurring right now.
Sid drags his index finger down Andy’s cheek. “Am I that transparent?”
“Sometimes,” Andy admits, catching Sid’s finger between his teeth.
Sid
watches from the front door as Andy walks to his car, watches him drive
away and thinks about how much money he has saved and whether he can
afford to get his truck fixed or maybe buy a used one.
He’s lost in thought, mentally running through numbers and figures when his phone buzzes.
I can still feel you inside me..
A shiver runs through his body as he types out an automatic response.
I’m counting down the days until I can be again.
He smiles as his phone buzzes again.
God, me too. G’night Sid :-)
He shakes his head in amusement, running his thumb over the smiley face.
It’s
been two months and Sid Phillips still has a boyfriend. Moreover, Andy
isn’t running for the hills. Maybe he’s not such a fuckup after all.
~~~~~~~~ Back to Toy Story ~~~~~~~~